I have sooo many bad habits. . .

OOOOHHHH MYY FUUCCKKING GOOSSHHH!!!

(Sorry for the language!)

Looks like I am weighing in at 225 lbs. Yeah, that was hard for me to type. I wear size 1X shirts and my pants are a size 18. This is getting rediculous. I haven't gained any weight in the past year, but just knowing that I have made NO PROGRESS is killing me. I was supposed to recommit to this diet thing on January 1st just like everyone else, BUUTTTT I procrastinated, yet again. See, this is where I run into my BIGGEST problem. I procrastinate. I quit. I GIVE UP. Sometimes I even give up without even realizing until I'm sitting in the bed eating shit like cinnamin buns or chips. Sometimes both. UGH! This has got to stop. I don't want to have a serious health condition because I have no self control or self discipline. I don't want to end up being too fat to fucking move. I'll be damned if I'm going to let this go on any longer. Here's what is going to happen. I'm going to get off of my fat, lazy ass and strap those sneakers on and get moving. No more fast food. No more soda. No more anything that will cause me to take two steps back. I've been doing okay the last month, BUT as soon as I start doing good, I feel deprived and I give up. THIS WILL NOT BE A DIET! I am changing the way I think, the way I act, the way I eat, etc. I am turning my life around NOW! I don't want to be 225 lbs. I don't want to wake up and look in the mirror and feel like a fat, ugly whale. I want to feel pretty. I want to feel healthy. I'm tired of feeling lazy. I know it isn't going to happen over night, but I CANNOT give up. I REFUSE!!!!!!

Its Tougher than It Looks. . .

Ladies and Gents. I have to say that I have fallen off track slightly here and there in the past week, but I haven't been doing terrible. I started the morning off right by having whole wheat toast with fake butter that has no calories and then I had some cottage cheese. I guess everyone has to come to terms with themselves and realize that you aren't going to eat perfectly for every meal of the day, everyday. Sometimes you have to take a step back and treat yourself a little. You only live once right?!?

My Fellow Buddies. . .

My name is Brittny Hall and I have been struggling with my weight since I was 12. Here is my story:

I moved up from Florida to North Carolina when I was 11. Before I had moved I went to daycare with my childhood friends and we were active EVERY afternoon. We usually played soccer. And before then I was in all kinds of dance and gymnastics classes from the time I was 3. I was always stick thin. My mother has even told me that she feared I was too skinny growing up.

Shortly after my family relocated, I realized that I had not been so active. Between not having anyone to be active with, and turning into a lazy teen, I started gaining weight.

Around 9th grade alot of "tragic" things impacted me mentally and I started binging and purging. (A secret I have shared with few.) I then tried starving myself but found that my self control was weak. I HAD to eat.

I dieted off and on all through high school thinking that if I just didn't eat for a while and then ate one meal or something that I'd quickly get thin, but I was all wrong. The less I ate, the more I wanted all the bad things. When I finaly let myself eat, I binged.

Well, that is all in the past now. Today starts a new day. I'm tired of looking in the mirror and wondering if I would be prettier if I were skinnier and healthier. I am tired of having to buy extra large shirts. It's depressing to even go shopping for clothes now because I'm afraid of what size clothing I'm going to end up coming home with.

I am not going to be going on a diet, but better yet, I am changing my way of life. This is a whole new era for me. Meals will be smaller portions. I will not be eating fatty meats. (I am going to try to stick with poultry and fish.) I will have lots of fruits and veggies to fill me up. Carbs? Well I can't kick those suckers to the curb comepletely. I'm going to limit myself to small portions and only good carbs.

My goal is to loose at least 50 lbs. My major goal is to lose 75 lbs. BUT, one step at a time right?!

Here's the catch. If I lose 50 lbs, I am going to consider surgery. What kind of surgery?! Breast lift and body lipo/tuck/lift. (Only of necessary.) I have personal reasons for the surgery, and I don't feel the need to explain. I am simply looking for support on this journey to lose the weight the right way. Let's do this together! ARE YOU WITH ME??!!??

Dinner. 5/31/2011

Okay, guys, this is going to sound horrible of me but in my defense, I hadn't had ANYTHING ELSE ALLLLL DAY. I went to a chinese buffet for dinner and consumed two plates with little servings of everything. BUT I also had a plate of fruit and pudding (which isnt too bad ;)

Dinner.

Well my partners in Chubby-ness, I am having an Atkins Strawberry Banana Shake and some Sugar Snap Pees for dinner. Seeing pictures of friends that I went to high school wiht that are beautiful and thin has really started making me feel worse about myself. I have got to start getting into a healthier state of being. This is just getting rediculous. I'm not even going to weigh myself. I'm simply going to eat healthier and find what works for me.

Sensa

Hey Laddies and Gentlemen,
I am starting my Sensa program today. It comes with a Salty side and a Sweet side. Its pretty much like a salt and sugar shaker. It is essentially supposed to work like MSG. It curbs your appetite and makes you full faster, that way you don't over eat. Without diet and exercise it has been in the news, proving that it DOES work. Now with a balanced diet and exercise, the results are going to be fantastic! At least I'm hoping that they will be. So, here's to loosing weight my friends. Day 1 begins today.
Love,
Brittny

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